-Saying yes to you-

Hi beautiful humans, how are you?! I always love the time we get to share together and the realizations that come to fruition with these blog posts. They truly are a gift to me, like all of you. Guiding and loving us through life with good vibes and positivity on the forefront. As we enter into this season of spring and life starts to begin again, bloom again, come to life again, what a beautiful reminder and message the universe has sent us that we too can partake in that. We can rise. We can grow. We can bloom. With love and consistency and a promise each day, we too can become our most beautiful beings. I mean no rain, no flowers right? But I think the key here is something we all struggle to do. We all struggle to continue to do. That idea of saying yes. And not the saying yes to the fundraiser or the bake sale or the email or the dishes. We somehow find a way to say yes to all of those things, even though we don’t want to. But saying yes to ourselves? Something that we need. Something that we so want. Something that maybe we say no to because we are afraid of what yes means? I don’t know and I’m not here to judge or make you feel anything but capable. But imagine a world where we soaked up the rain and the sunshine just like flowers and we let ourselves grow. It’s the idea of letting it happen and allowing it to transform us that I know I get stuck on. So how do we say not only say yes, but also let that yes do it’s magic? I don’t know for sure, but this is what I got.

So to me saying yes is the easiest step. It’s the quick spit back response. It’s the end of the conversation. It’s the buying more time before the work starts. I mean someone asks you something and all you have to do is say yes. Easy peasy lemon squeezy. It’s what happens after the yes that gets hard. It’s literally all the other steps of the yes. So let’s say you decide to start going to spin. You know you need that time. You know you need to move your body, cleanse your soul, and let your heart feel. Saying yes to that, signing up for the class, it’s literally a few clicks and your in. But getting there...I mean the infectious smiles of people and the love of that studio alone is motivation. But it’s taking time away from work or family. It’s leaving something “more important” (so we think). It’s changing clothes, which I know sounds silly, but sometimes it’s a step ya know?? Like you just have to put the clothes on. It’s driving. It’s setting intentions. It’s doing something that maybe you know you can’t do perfectly. It’s work. But remember, saying yes was the easiest part. So it’s not really the yes, it’s what happens after. And what happens after makes it self out to be all these minor inconveniences that we try to talk ourselves out of. But what we really want to walk away from is what happens.

You see, the work that actually goes into saying yes is wearing a mask. The mask is the struggle to get there. The figuring out the schedule. The not having enough time. We say that is what causes us to not do something. To not follow through. Because we really are just trying to shy away from what happens when we do say yes AND follow through. And that little thing that happens, that pesky thing, is change. The reason saying yes is easy but following through is hard is because on the other side of yes is the walk to change. The bridge you have to walk and cross to get to the growth. And it’s not always fun or the most thrilling of walks. When we get to this point, we see everything we need to work on. All our insecurities. All the shit we deal with on the daily. All the struggles, pain, heavy things that weigh us down. So of course we want to turn around and use the inconveniences as an excuse. It easier then dealing with all of that right? But what happens if we take a step on that bridge of change? Well, that’s when the sunlight and the water start growing the flower. Aka you.

You see, when you’re faced with something that is real you kind of have to deal with it. No matter how hard you try not to, it will keep showing up and dealing with it is just part of life. When you deal with one thing, you grow a little. You take another step. When you start to grow through things, you start to live. When you begin to live in the midst of all of your insecurities and struggles, that is called living with love. Because even though you are surrounded by so much pain and so many things that need to be fixed, you still chose to live and put your best foot forward for not only those in your life, but you. That is called love. When you start loving, you start shining. You start glowing. You start setting the light for others to live a life of love. And when that happens, you grow even more.

So saying yes? Keep doing it. But this time, go all in. Say yes to the pain. Say yes to the insecurities. Say yes to the mistakes you have made. The shame you have felt. Because if you can say yes to you in your most realest and rawest forms, then you have learned to love your true self. You have let yourself accept who you are. You let in the sunshine and the rain and you my beautiful friend have started to grow.

With all my love, sunshine, and rain,

Caroline