-The hearts who carry us home-

Hi there TORQUE tribe, Happy Friday! I know that sometimes it feels like these blogs come and go, but honestly I love how they are spaced out. I always feel so excited to sit down and write a blog when I know it has been a couple weeks. There is just so much more to say with time and so much more energy in one post. Less can be more and these blogs have shown me that. I don't know about you, but I know that this snow has me in a little bit of an anxious state. I’m anxious for spring. I’m anxious about what school will look like these days. I’m anxious about it ever ending. It is just one of those things that is great the first time it happens, but now it seems as if it is an inconvenience and just another thing making 2020-21 a mess. I am trying so hard to focus on the good that 2020-21 has brought us. Virtual school means no make up days when the weather is beautiful. The studio being closed just means time to explore the online classes. Not feeling like cooking is a great opportunity to support a local business. I try, on these days, to look towards what is bright and light, instead of what we see outside, cold and dreary. Believe me tribe, warmer and brighter days are coming. In the meantime, we have to stay close and dear to the hearts in our lives who time after time, carry us home. It is a weird world.


I want you to close your eyes right now and think about the people in your life. The ones who get you when you don't get yourself. The ones you can call for literally anything. The ones who speak volumes in silence because their presence is louder than any words. The ones who love you through all the stages of life. The ones who got you here to this point. The ones who carry you home. Think of them right now. I am sure you can see their face, hear their voice, recall a memory or time they were there for you. These people were not ones that just happened to show up. Maybe it appears that way. Maybe you met on a whim. Maybe they were a result of something no longer good or present in your life. Maybe they were there all along. Whatever the case may be or the story on how they came into your life, the common theme is they not only came into your life, they are still here in your life. Again, not on a whim but rather, a reason. Yes, these people, the ones you can see so clearly and pinpoint so quickly, they are here for a reason. Maybe you knew that already, maybe you are questioning what that reason is. My advice to you is to hold them tight. Nurture your friendship. Be the same person to them as they are to you. Love hard and don't let them go. The reason is, its a big world out there. It is a scary world out there. It can be a harsh world out there. But when you can face it knowing someone has your back, it can seem a little less intimidating.

I say this not because I feel that anyone here is a bad friend. And believe me we have all been a bad friend before. There are probably people that came to mind before that you have lost touch with. People you did wrong. People you wish were in your life but unfortunately they are not. That is okay. Life is a series of events that help us to grow into our best self. It is okay to have not been okay to be a good friend to some people on your way to this place now. Every relationship, every event, every encounter adds to who you are. Without mistakes and without living through these feelings, we wouldn't know how to be a good friend. Forgive yourself for doing wrong and send them a good wish or positive energy within your heart and know that forgiveness starts within yourself and is felt when you accept it in your bones.

The reason I say this is because we have been through ALOT. We are still going through ALOT. And it is important to really recognize the people who have helped you get here. The hearts who keep carry you back to brightness and lights. I can think of so many times during this pandemic where I wanted to just be done. Right? I just wanted it to be over. I wanted to stop following the guidelines. I wanted to break the rules. I wanted to just do nothing because it was so terrible. But then I think of those times and how they gave me the opportunity to grow deeper with some people in my life. They gave me revelations on who was with me and who loved me. They gave me a reason to feel the feels and let people in. And the people who were on the other side of the phone, and then eventually the driveway, and eventually a table during this pandemic, are the people who are so deep and rooted within my heart. It may have taken a pandemic to really realize this, but I bet you can say the same about some of those people in your life. Tough times make life clear. That is a blessing in and of itself.

I ask that you take time to think about the people who pick you up and carry you on your shoulders. Tell them you love them. Friendships are so essential in life. Family is one thing, but friends are a different ballgame. Sometimes the relationship is so different, yet so the same that our friends truly become our family. Give yourself grace for the ones you couldn't love at the time. And let your heart guide you and those you love to things that are bright and good. I know it knows the way always, even if it makes some turns or hits some bumps. It eventually, gets itself back on track. Maybe with a little help from a friend who carried you home.

I love you TORQUE Tribe. I miss you in my bones. I’ll see you soon, but until then, know I'm thinking of you and holding you near and dear to my heart. XOXO.

Caroline